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today was the day of "suck" in that I was full of the sucky. My eye was really killing me so I showed up at work, my boss said "ick" and I said "I am going home" and he said "good idea"

So I played Neverwinter Nights 2. I beat it once playing a good character, this time I am beating it playing an evil character. it is a very different game being evil. there are alot of different quests, and your party whine alot more when you brutally murder people... woosies.

I ended up having to skip the Dojo today because of the eye infection, and I also skipped L and A moving in. Both of which I feel guilty about. But I should be healthier by friday and I will hit ht Dojo then since I have nothing to do on friday. It is kind of funny actually, all of these weekends, and except for character creation for R's Hell to Pay demon game I have nothing lined up. Well almost nothing, I am going to be manning the Dojo's booth at Heritage Days. But other than that, I have very little.

As for Hell to Pay. I finally made my Incubus. I have a few more details to work out. He is a Nephilim (child of an angel or devil and a human) character. I was thinking of naming him Cambion, since that was the name for the demonic offspring that came from the union of a demon (usually a succubus) and a human. Not sure about the name though. One of his REjections (the thing that makes him not fit into mortal society) will be of course the fact that when he has sex with a human he drains their life energy and they die in the process... but he needs another rejection so I am thinking of something physical, like vampire fangs... which fits the theme.

So my insomnia seems to be lessening slightly but not much. Proof being the fact that I am writing this now at 11:41 instead of being asleep.

I still have not heard word on that Job that I interviewed for, although I did get a note that the decision maker should be back in the office next monday.

My current job is going well, the business is starting to roll in, but slowly. My boss even offered me a raise already without me asking for it because "he wanted to make sure I am happy, and he wants to keep me" I will take it, although I am still looking into the above mentioned job.

Oh and my eyelid is infected... it is painful... I went to the doc... he says it should be fixed in 7 days with the antibiotics that he threw at it.

Quick note:

So I did really well at my job interview on Friday. They told me that I ended up as the "star of the ball" out of all of those interviewed. It is in limbo for a week since the president is on holidays. But if all goes well they will probably fly me out to Montreal to sign contracts and shit in about 2 weeks.

My current, new job is going well. It will take me a long time to get to a half decent amount of money though since it is all commission basically and there are no current customers in my territory. On a plus side it is low stress, and they really don't care what I do during the day as long as I show up in the mornings, and at the end of day.

I chatted with RL (from S'Toon) for a while on the phone this evening... which is an oddity for me since I really hate talking on the phone if I can avoid it. But it was nice chatting with her all the same, and I am looking forward to her move up here to Edmonton.

Other than getting my room organized and unpacked, and playing in C and J's Arthurian LARP nothing much happened. Although Tristan (my character) gained alot more power via a pact I made with The Goddess, and some power I got from the Lady in the Cave. I am still kind of lacking in actual plot during the game, but it will be ending in a couple months so hopefully things will pick up since I have aligned with Team Ev.... errrr.... Camelot.

So, I was reading yet another magazine article regarding the War, or Terror, or the impending Oil Crisis, or something. And I had a moment of realization. First of all, the Environment is not fucked. We are going to run out of oil in less than 50 years, this means that we will no longer create greenhouse gasses, and the earth will repair itself. But the second thing that I realized was that I crave a global catastrophe. Like how ones computer needs a re-formatting every once in a while. It is just that I crave this consumer, object oriented culture to end. Here is the thing, I am using a computer, sitting infront of a fan, typing this. That makes everything I am writing so full of hypocracy it kills me. Lets face it, in this culture I will not stop living for consumption. So, because I am to weak to stop, I would like to have some kind of global meltdown that would force me to stop. I really think the above is the reason why we have so much mental illness, depression, recreational drug use, etc. I think I am not the only one that feels the gap between our authentic happiness and the way this culture has lead us. But this is not a modern idea. Look back throughout civilization. Mesopotamian's, Greeks, everyone have apocolyptic stories or writings. But I do not think that the Apocolypse is our fear, it is our dream, our goal and our asperation. We have been described as "Fire People". We are born, and we consume. We have harnessed the power of fire and that is what gives us our power. We have power because we have harnessed destruction. Coal fired power, internal combustion engines, everything we do is connected to fire. I think that we crave apocolypse because it will mean that we are finished, it means that we have consumed everything that we can, and our role is complete. A friend of mine D recenctly ran a Vampire LARP. At the last game all of the hidden shadows and systems of things were pulled back and destroyed giving the players and oportunity to start again. A Vampire Apocolypse if you will. Now those that are left have a clear harddrive to create any way they like. I am not sure if most of the players got that theme out of the game, but the Fantasy idea of the end, and a new beginning intrigues me greatly. Wouldn't it be wonderfull if Monday there was oil, then Tuesday there was not. Think of the ramifications to our culture, to the middle east. Now, think of how you would carve out your world in the wake of such a grinding halt? Now, ask yourself, "Why am I not grinding out that future now?"